June 1, 2010
He hesitated for a few seconds before opening his eyes. Did the operation work? How much would he be able to see, if anything? Or, will it be another disappointment? If it is, he told himself, this is it. A fourth operation is enough to think it's not going to happen.
Noah's mind swirled with thoughts. Thoughts about how his life had already dramatically changed in the last 9 months. Everything was different. 9 months ago, he was finishing his senior thesis and preparing to graduate college. He was firmly set in his goals and what career he wanted. He wanted to direct films and knew he was good at it. The film he almost completed for his thesis had been an amazing experience! He met others in the film industry who thought his work was good and this confirmed for him that he was good at something. Despite all his father had told him for most of his life, he was good at something!
He had found a real family for himself in Oakdale. Despite only being in town for 3 years, he had friends, and he had close friends that felt like family. The Snyders had taken him in and treated him like one of their own. And he had found Luke.
Noah was so unsure of himself before coming to Oakdale to go to school. He had listened to his father for so many years tell him exactly what to do and how to do it. Getting away from him at that time had been one of the best things that ever happened to him. But, the absolute best thing was meeting Luke. Luke helped Noah realize who he was and what he was. Luke helped answer the questions he had about himself for so long. He was gay and was able to accept that. And Luke had become the love of his life. Even if those feelings changed in the last 9 months, he would always be grateful to Luke for helping him come out, and he would always love him, in some way.
They had been through so much together! People like his father had tried to come between them. Crazy events you normally see in a soap opera put obstacles in their path together, but Noah and Luke had always found their way back to each other. Noah knew that Luke was his soul mate. But maybe sometimes soul mates don't stay together after all.
The last 9 months had proven too much for both of them to handle. Noah got past initially blaming Luke for the accident that caused his blindness. But Luke had not understood Noah's need to become independent and prove he wouldn't have to rely on someone else to do everything for him. This more than anything had pushed them apart, especially in the last few months. Maybe he shouldn't have moved out of Luke's house to live with Maddie, his ex-girlfriend! How must that have made Luke feel? But at the time he needed space to get through this ordeal. Of course his doctor hadn't made things any easier, demanding that Luke be kept out of the picture because he was "annoying".
Luke had been dealing with his own crisis since Damian, his father, had disappeared and left him in charge of the family's business. And Luke had seemed even more distant lately. Noah wasn't sure exactly why. They rarely spoke anymore. Luke wasn't even there right now, waiting to see if this latest surgery worked. How did we go from living together and being in love, to this, Noah thought.
Then he remembered today's date. June 1. 3 years to the day Noah had walked into the radio station and first met Luke and Maddie. My God, he thought, has it really been 3 years?
All of these thoughts and memories flooded Noah's mind in seconds. But it was time. It was now or never, time to open his eyes and "see" what he would be able to see.....
It's written to build to a climax/confrontation in the middle, then reverses back on itself to repeat themes from earlier chapters, as you probably can tell from the titles.
June 1, 2010