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I got up after confirming my flight to LA. I really can’t believe that I am going to see Noah. I’ve always imaged that this would happen. I mean when Noah left we had even said that one day we would find our way back to one another. It’s just that I can literally feel my heart beating out of my freaking chest. I need to just breathe, these next two days are going to go by so slow. I guess I need to start packing.
Half way through packing I realized that I don’t need to finish packing today as I have two days left to do it in. I need to let off some steam I guess I’ll go on a run. I need to check my phone first though. Oh, hey I didn’t hear my phone go off but I have a text from Noah. “Luke, um we need to talk and I don’t think it can wait till you get here. Call me as soon as possible please.” Crap, that doesn’t sound too good. I better get this out of the way before I go for my run.
The phone rings three times before he answers it. “Mayor.” The way this man answers his phone. You would think he actually joined the Military like is Father wanted. “Hey Noah, what’s up?” I say, my nerves are haywire. I’m sure he can hear it in my voice. “Luke, hey. I just... I have some stuff I need to get off my chest before you get here.” Oh. “Shoot.” Is this only thing I can think of to say “Well, we’ve acknowledged that it’s been a year since we have seen each other. I was just thinking do you think we should figure out where we stand with each other before you head out here? I mean I know we’ve been talking for the last few months. And I have no idea what you are thinking.” This is not how I seen this conversation going. “I um. I guess that would be for the best Noah. But honestly, I have no idea where to start.” This is blowing my mind. “Okay. How about I start. You know I have never been good with words that has always been you. Luke, I love you. I always have. I always will. When you was with Reid, It killed me. Every day. But I had to deal because I know I am the one who pushed you away I blamed you, but baby my feelings for you has never changed. I love you. I love you so much.”
My head is spinning. “Luke… please say something.” Okay well here it goes, “I was… I was just thinking how much you mean to me. Noah, when we were together those were some of the best years of my life. Even if I wanted them to, my feelings for you have not changed. I don’t think they ever will. I love you, too Noah, more then you will ever know.”
I cannot believe this is happening. I’ve thought about this for the last six months. And it’s finally happening. “I am so glad to hear you say that. So, um… where does this leave us?” Noah’s words are like a lifejacket that is keeping my head above water. “Right now, I don’t know. What do you want us to be?” “Well. I know that in two days you will be here. And I really want to kiss you as soon as you step off that flight. And I think it would hurt to kiss you knowing that we are not… you know. Together.” “Noah Mayor, are saying that you want to be together again?” “Well, um… yes, but only if you want to be” “Yes!” I laugh. “Of course I want to be with you. More than anything!