“True colours is totally our song now.” Luke said, feeling like he’d never stop smiling.
The day had turned out so much better than he’d expected. Sure, getting to interview Cyndi Lauper was pretty special but Noah, his Noah, was now back where he belonged. Right by his side.
“Enjoy life and love and be proud. And I’ll see you around there cutie.” Cyndi said as she gave them one last smile and walked away to go talk to other fans.
“I can’t believe that this is happening.” Luke said, patting Noah’s chest, not wanting to stop touching the other boy.
“What, that we just met Cyndi Lauper?”
“Yeah, that too.. but I was talking about us. How long have we waited for this to happen?” Luke asked before taking Noah’s hands in his. “It might be for the first time ever... but there is no-one staying at the farm tonight.” He said, hoping Noah would get the hint.
The other boy squeezed his hands and swallowed a few times but didn’t say anything.
“I want you to come home with me Noah. We can be alone. Finally.”
“Luke.. I..I.. can’t.”
“Don’t you want to be with me?”
“Of course I do. There is nothing I want more.”
“Then what’s the problem?”
“It’s.. it’s getting late.. I should go.”
“Why? Are.. are you scared of.. being with me?”
“No! No.. yes.. a little? I guess.. But that’s not it. I.. have something important to do tomorrow.. and if I stay with you tonight I won’t do it. Noah said, looking Luke in the eye, hoping he’d understand.
“Something important? Like what?”
“I can’t tell you.. you won’t understand..”
“Try me.” Luke said, crossing his arms in front of his chest.
“I’m going to enlist.” Noah said quickly.
“In the army.”
“Yes.. I figured.. but, Noah, why? You hate the army.”
“I don’t.. I don’t hate the army. It’s always been my home. It’s easy.”
“Easy? You could get sent to a warzone and get killed.”
“That won’t happen.”
“How do you know?”
“If.. When I enlist, I’ll have to go through basic training.. where they teach you what to do in combat situations. I won’t get deployed for at least a year.”
“Is that supposed to make me feel better?”
“I’m sorry.. I didn’t mean to hurt you. It’s just.. my life is such a mess right now.”
“Not you. You’re the only thing that makes sense.”
“Then why are you leaving me?” Luke asked, hating himself for sounding like a needy housewife.
“I’m a mess right now Luke. Not boyfriend material. At all.” Noah said and took a deep breath before continuing. “The army is what I know. They tell you what to do, where to go, when to eat, when to sleep.. it makes life simpler. And I want to feel like I’m doing some good after everything my father did. I want to help. Serve my country.”
“You can help people without enlisting.”
Noah sighed and sat down on the edge of the stage.
“I know.. but this is the way I have to do it.”
“I don’t understand. Your father always pressured you to enlist.. and you didn’t want to.. and now we’ve finally gotten rid of him.. you do the one thing he always wanted you to? Are you trying to honour his memory or something?”
“I told you, you wouldn’t understand..” Noah said, sadly. “I shouldn’t have come here tonight. I’m sorry.” He said and moved to get up but Luke stopped him.
“You’re right. I don’t understand. I don’t understand why you enlisted when you’ve always said you didn’t want anything to do with the army. That you wanted to make films. That one day you’d direct the film for the script I wrote.”
Noah smiled thinking about the many times they’d had that conversation.
“I haven’t actually enlisted yet. I was going to first thing tomorrow morning.”
“Was?” Luke asked hopeful.
“Am.” Noah corrected himself, sounding less sure of himself than before which Luke considered a win.
“Come home with me tonight.”
“Luke.. I can’t..”
“Yes. Yes you can..” Luke said and leaned in and pressed a kiss to the other boy’s lips. “Come home with me.” He repeated. “We don’t have to do anything. We can just talk.. or not. Just forget about the army for tonight and let’s just enjoy.. being together.”
“Just for tonight. I’d rather just have one night with you than none at all.”
“I’m enlisting, I’m not dying, Luke.”
“You don’t know that. Just.. stay with me tonight and if you still want to enlist tomorrow, I’ll come with you to the recruitment station.”
“You don’t have to do that..”
“I want to say goodbye. Even if I’ll have to do it as your friend and not your boyfriend. Even if I won’t be able to be your boyfriend for as long as you’ll be in the army.”
Luke’s words hurt. Noah hadn’t considered the army’s stance on homosexuality when he first talked with the recruiting officers. He and Luke had been over and the less he thought about that, the better.
Noah grabbed Luke’s hand and entwined their fingers.
“Ok. You’re right. I can forget about it all for tonight. We’re supposed to celebrate love, remember?” He said, repeating Cyndi’s words to them from earlier that night.
Luke smiled and stood up, pulling Noah to his feet too.
“You want to get out of here?”
“The lights are on in the kitchen, do you think someone’s home after all?” Noah asked when he parked his truck in front of the farmhouse.
“I don’t see any other cars, I guess I just forgot to turn off the lights.” Luke said and shrugged. “Come on, let’s go inside. Unless you changed your mind?”
Noah smiled.“Not a chance.”
He got out of the car and took a deep breath as he looked around. The place would probably always feel like home to him.
“Do you want to go for a walk around the pond first?” Luke asked. “Or we could go for a swim.” He suggested, grinning.
“As tempting as that sounds..” Noah started, wrapping his arms around Luke’s waist. “I don’t want our first time to be in the pond.”
Luke bit his lip, both of them knew exactly what he’d meant when he’d asked Noah to spend the night with him, but hearing the words out loud made the butterflies in his stomach go crazy and his heart rate double.
“Yeah.. Yeah you’re right. bed is better.”
“Much better.” Noah agreed as he followed Luke inside the house and let him lead him up the stairs to his bedroom. “Why do I feel like we’re breaking the rules?” He said as Luke closed and locked the door behind them.
“Because you’re such a boy scout. But that’s ok. I still love you.” Luke said as he pulled Noah close and kissed him.
“I love you too.” Noah replied and let Luke gently push him towards the bed.
“Are you sure?” Luke asked when the back of Noah’s knees hit the edge of the bed.
“I’ve never been more sure.”
“I was hoping you’d say that.”
When Luke woke up early the next morning Noah’s side of the bed was empty and the sheets cold. His heart sank.
He left. After the night they’d just spent together he left anyway. Without saying goodbye.
He wanted to hide in bed for the rest of the day and wallow in self pity but his stomach protested, loudly, making him realise he hadn’t really eaten since lunch the previous day.
After throwing on some clothes and making his way downstairs, Luke noticed Noah’s truck was still parked in front of the house.
“Noah?” Luke called out but got no reply. “Where the hell are you?”
He decided to check the barn to see if Noah had maybe decided to go feed the horses.
“Dad! What are you doing here? No-one was supposed to be home.”
“I live here, remember? Am I interrupting something? Isn’t that Noah’s truck parked out front? He sure is visiting early.” Holden teased.
“Yes, yes he is and I need to find him. Have you seen him?”
Holden shook his head.
“Nope, haven’t seen anything or anyone. Absolutely nothing.”
“You’re hilarious. And useless.” Luke said and walked out of the barn.
“Hey Luke,” Holden called out after him. “Don’t forget to cover up that hickey before grandma gets home”
Luke decided to ignore his father and to continue to look for his boyfriend. A few minutes later he found him sitting in their favourite spot by the pond.
“There you are.” He said as he sat down next to Noah. “When I woke up alone I thought you’d left.”
“I wouldn’t leave without saying goodbye.”
“So you’re still leaving?” Luke asked, not sure he was ready to hear the answer.
“I.. don’t know..” Noah said and turned to face Luke. “This time yesterday I was so sure.. about enlisting. That it was the right thing to do. That it would only be a couple of years and that it would be good for me.”
“But now I’m not sure about anything anymore. I don’t want to leave you..but I don’t think I can be with you.. be the person you deserve to be with when I’m.. messed up..”
“Noah, do you love me?”
“Of course. You know I do.”
“Do you want to be with me?”
“Yes but Luke..”
“No. No buts. Those are the important things. We love each other and we want to be together. We’ll figure the rest out eventually.”
June 26th 2015
“I can’t take it anymore. I’ve never been so nervous in my life.” Luke said, wiping his sweaty palms on his jeans “It has to be today. They can’t put it off any longer, right?”
“Well.. they did just say that it could be pushed back till Monday.” Noah said, grabbing Luke’s hand and entwining their fingers. “Just try to relax. Freaking out won’t make them decide anything any faster.”
“Noah, honey, you know he won’t relax until the ruling is announced.” Lily said and patted his knee. “He’s always been like this. You should’ve seen him as a kid on Christmas morning while he had to wait for everyone to get up to open his presents.”
“He’s still like that. He woke me up at 5am last Christmas because the waiting was too much.” Noah teased.
“Hey! I’m right here. And why are you so calm? This is a big deal.”
“I know. But stressing out before we know anything only gives you a headache. I’d rather celebrate the good news later.”
“If there is good news..”
“Positive thinking, baby.” Noah said and kissed his boyfriend.
“Why do you care so much anyway?” Natalie asked.“You can already get married in Illinois.”
“Yeah but there are still places where we can’t. Where Noah wouldn’t be allowed to see me in hospital if something happened to me.” Luke explained.
“And don’t you think everyone everywhere should be able to get married if they want to? And get the same benefits as everyone else?” Noah added.
“Shut up! This is it. It’s happening!” Luke said, turning the volume on the TV up, just in time to hear the news anchor say the words he’d been dying to hear.
“Same sex marriage is now legal in all 50 states.”
“Oh my god. We won! Noah we won!” Luke said, flinging his arms around his boyfriend’s neck and kissing every inch of his face he could reach.
“Well they’ve certainly got good timing. What with the pride festivals this weekend.” Holden said happily.
“Yeah and we’re going to see Cyndi Lauper in Chicago tonight.” Noah told him.
“Celebrating with Cyndi.” Luke said laughingly. “I wonder if she remembers us.”
“I don’t think I’ve ever seen this many rainbow flags in one place.” Noah said, looking around the concert hall. “Well.. other than our apartment.”
“Everybody is gay tonight. Very gay.”
“I’m not gay.” Noah said and laughed when Luke raised his eyebrows. “I’m ecstatic.”
“A dork, that’s what you are.” Luke said and kissed him. “And adorable.”
“The next song is dedicated to all couples here tonight that can now legally get married everywhere!” Cyndi announced and the crowd cheered.
“It’s our song” Noah said when he recognised the first few notes of True Colours. “Dance with me.”
Together they swayed to the music, lost in their own little world until they suddenly appeared on the big screens next to the stage.
Luke pressed a small kiss to Noah’s lips and stepped out of his embrace before getting down on one knee, waiting for the song to finish.
“Luke what are you doing?”
“Noah Mayer, love of my life, I don’t have a ring because I didn’t exactly plan on doing this now but... will you marry me?”
Noah nodded and pulled Luke to his feet and kissed him.
“Yes. Yes I will marry you.” He said and kissed his now fiancé.
People around them started cheering.
“Congratulations cuties! I hope you’ll be very happy together.” Cyndi said and blew them a kiss from the stage. “I’ll be waiting for the wedding invitation.”
June 26th 2016
“So, are you nervous for your big day?” Holden asked his son as he squeezed his shoulder.
“A little. But it’s the good kind of nervous. I can’t wait to officially be Noah’s husband.” Luke said, smiling brightly.
“A few months ago I didn’t think you two would make it to this day.”
“The way you two fought over the music.”
“That was nothing. Noah just won’t let himself believe in miracles. She’ll be here.”
“Luke.. this is Cyndi Lauper we’re talking about. She’s an international super star. She doesn’t have time to go to a fan’s wedding.”
“Maybe. Maybe not. I sent her an invitation with a letter explaining who we are and how she got us back together and that I proposed to Noah during her concert in Chicago last year.”
“And did she RSVP?”
“No.. not exactly. But I know she knows. I sent her the same message on Facebook and I saw that she read it. I think she’ll be here.”
“Alright. It’s your day, if that’s what you want to believe, that’s ok. I just don’t want you to be disappointed.”
“Don’t worry dad, I’m not a kid anymore. I’m marrying the love of my life today. No matter what happens, whether it’s Casey or Cyndi singing True Colours for our first dance, this will be the best day of my life.”
“Now onto the important stuff.” Aaron, who got ordained online especially, said as he clapped his hands. “Let’s make sure it’s all legal.”
“Do you, Luciano, I mean Luke Snyder.” He said and winked at his younger brother. “Take Noah Mayer to be your lawfully wedded husband for as long as you both shall live?”
“And you, Noah Mayer, do you take my sweet little brother Luke Snyder to be your lawfully wedded husband for as long as you both shall live?”
“Are you sure? Last chance to get out.” Aaron joked.
“I’m sure. I’m very sure. There’s nothing I want more.”
“Good. Then I now pronounce you married. You may kiss the uhm.. groom.”
Everyone cheered as they shared their first kiss as husbands.
“Ok everyone, I want to ask you to clear the dance floor for the happy couple’s first dance.” Casey said a little while later as he started playing True Colours.
“I’m sorry Cyndi didn’t show up.” Noah said softly as they slow danced to their favourite song.
“It’s ok. You’re here and that’s all I need.” Luke said and kissed his husband.
Suddenly the music stopped and someone tapped the microphone to get their attention.
“Sorry I’m a little late, boys, but I hope you won’t mind me singing a little song for you on your wedding day.”